my lifeas itis.
Thursday, December 02, 2004
* Lost Without You*
"Lost Withou You"
Delta Goodrem
I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you
How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say
All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
Oh
All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you
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eHz.. i litSeNeD tO aLoT oF sOnGs tOdAy lArx! cOz iM rEaLLy siAnx mAhx.. kEkE.. aNd gUeSs wAt.. sOmE sOnGs nEaRly cAuSeD mE tO tEaR lo.. gEez.. iM tOo eMoTiOnAl bAhx.. yuPp! mUsT cHaNgE mUsT cHaNgE!! hAhAx..
*bLeAhx* aCtUaLLy i hAvE nOtHiNg tO wRitE lArx.. sO iM bAsiCaLLy jUz cRaPpiNg! hAhAx.. kEkE..
pEaCe oUt~
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Story: What I Did For Love
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Part 13
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Years had pass and I'm still with Ji Won. I didn't think it was possible but I grew more and more in love with Ji Won everyday. We would do a lot of stuff together and we never had any fights. We argue, but it never came to the point where we would get really mad at each other and he usually let me have it my way.
Kang Sung Hoon was Ji Won's other friend and he hangs out with us a lot too. Sung Hoon is a little older than me and is really nice. He has this really cute smile that when he smiles, you can't help but smile back. I called him 'bang geul ee.' His family life also isn't good. His dad is a drunk and his mom had passed away when he was young. So usually it was the three of us together.
My home life is a lot better thanks to Ji Won. My stepmom didn't dare to touch me anymore and it's still the same between me and my dad. We don't talk much. Ji Won's parents like me a lot too. It's because when they tell Ji Won to do something and he wouldn't do it. They would come to me. I'm kind of like their pawn. Life was heaven for me until it completely shattered on day.
It started out with good news but who would have known it would end up in tragedy?
June 15, 1996
My stepmom and dad came home one day from visiting the Euns. "Guess what?" my stepmom told me excitedly.
"What?" I asked calmly.
"The Euns are planning a wedding for you and Ji Won!"
I sat down because my knees gave out. This news hit me with total surprise but I was so happy to hear it because I’m so in love with Ji Won. "Really?" I asked excitedly? "How did this happened?"
"Mr. Eun wanted Ji Won to get married and he figured you’re the girl he should marry."
"What did Ji Won say?" I had to ask. I didn't want him to be forced into this.
"Of course he agreed," she answered.
My breathing increased so I took out my respirator. After I calmed down, my stepmom took me into her room and told me all about the arrangements.
Meanwhile back at the Eun mansion...
"Just because you’re making this wedding for me and Mina doesn't mean I owe you anything!" Ji Won yelled angrily at his dad.
Mr. Eun grabbed Ji Won by the collar of his shirt. "Ji Won! You listen to me. Once you and Mina get married, your grandpa will give you all of his businesses. Sharing part of it with your dad isn’t asking for much is it?" Ji Won pushed his dad away. He began to laugh. "The only two people grandpa will give the businesses to is me or uncle. He won't give it to you because you’ll spend it all on those whores! I bet all your money is gone now."
It was true. Mr. Eun was in serious debt and he needed Ji Won to get married because Ji Won's grandpa was going to give Ji Won his inheritance once he gets married. Ji Won had just turned 18 and his dad had planned the marriage months ahead. His dad got on his knees. "Please son. Please do it for me."
Ji Won rolled his eyes. "You're so pathetic dad." He sighed. Living with Mina taught him compassion and sympathy for people. "I'll see what I can do dad." He went into his room. Just then his cellular phone rang. He picked it up, thinking it was Mina. Using his sexy voice, he whispered, "Hi Mina."
A weird high-pitched giggle came from the other end of the line.
"Ooh..." said the voice. "Hi to you too sexy."
Ji Won rolled his eyes. "Oh shut up Sung Hoon."
Using his real voice, Sung Hoon began to laugh out loud. "Gross hyung! That's how you talk to Mina? Ew! It gives me the chills!"
"Hey Sung Hoon," said Ji Won seriously. "Is everything set and ready to go?"
"Yeah hyung," said Sung Hoon.
"Good," said Ji Won, smiling. "Meet me at the docks tonight. From there we can sail to the mainland airport and get away from Hawaii to start a new life in Korea."
"Yeah," said Sung Hoon. "But did you tell Mina about it?"
"No," answered Ji Won, sighing. "I'm afraid she won't leave her family. I'm planning to just kidnap her and take her along. It's easier that way and no hassle."
"Right," said Sung Hoon. "At least the three of us will still be together."
"Yeah," said Ji Won. "Meet you in an hour. Get everything ready. I got our money too."
"Okay," replied Sung Hoon.
"Bye." Ji Won clicked off his phone. Ji Won's dad didn't know it but his grandpa had given him $10 million in advance, along with hotel ownerships in Korea and Hawaii as his wedding gift. He planned to leave his dad $5 million and live off the rest with Mina and Sung Hoon. He smiled thinking about how he would get away from everything and just be with the one he loved the most, Mina.
still the same.|
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